I have now spent a week off my antidepressants, booked two holidays this year and going to start being an army reservist.
This year i am going to make it my year no one is going to get in my way or drag me down or control my life anymore I have seen and can register the signs of a toxic person now.
I am going to turn 30 this year and I’m still single which isn’t a bad thing its nice because you don’t have to worry about someone else or take someone else’s feeling into account when I want to leave the house or go shopping I can just go without asking if anyone wants something. But that being said I miss spoiling my partner and buy them surprise presents, have cuddles while it rains and watch a movie. I miss waking up to someone and turning over to cuddle them. I miss the feeling of being wanted by someone. I’m in no rush to find someone I’, just going to make the most of being single and focus on myself.
The holidays I have booked are: a trip round Europe so 2 nights in Paris, 2 in Brussels and 2 in Amsterdam which I’m going to explore the countries and make the most of it. I call it “My holiday” which I know sounds a little odd but I have worked for 4 years straight and haven’t taken anytime out for myself and this is my way to finally treat myself.
Holiday number 2: This line is my brothers wedding we are going to the Greek islands and explore the area for a week which will be lovely and I get to be best man and yes I do have to write a speech weather it’s embarrassing or just meaningful that’s for you to wonder. I will get to meet my brother in laws family which I’m excited about and I love the idea of two families being united into one with a beautiful ceremony.
I’ve also started making furniture for fun which it turns out to be very therapeutic and a nice way to meet other people as well. I’m making a resin table which I will sell after and then I’m going to make a TV stand for myself as the one I’ve got was flat packed and doesn’t go with the aesthetics of the new house. It just goes to show that the best thing to do in life is experiment and find something you enjoy and just embrace it. You can turn anything into a coping mechanism and a way to get a break from life as a whole.
I will do another post about my holiday and another life update
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