So first off I want to ask for a moment of silence for my 20’s
Thank you, now let’s move onto the more interesting part of my life around why this birthday was like no other.
If you have read any of my previous posts you would have noticed I don’t have the best relationship with family members, but this one is a slightly different kind of story from my life, this one is about me and my dad.
So I haven’t seen my dad for 10-11 years and this year I decided to make an effort to have a relationship with him and my sister and I took the leap, to invite them for my birthday.
So the first night went kinda interesting it was awkward seeing him after such a long time and then we went out for some diner which he told me something unexpected “When we had you, I felt regret and regretted having you”. I wasn’t expecting to be told that two days before turning 30 but I keep telling myself it was just the alcohol talking and not him.
On the day before I turned 30 he showed me around the big city and most of the sights which was a nice way for us to bond and get to know who each other is, after showing me around we went back to the hotel to relax till we went out for my birthday meal which was nice to spend time with his family and honestly that was the first time in a long time I have experienced a functioning family and it was very refreshing to see. But as it’s a classic my life story it always has a turn and with this one I also found out that he wan’t there when I was born but he was there for the others which did sting a bit and it made me realise the middle child syndrome is very true.
I’m still determined to spend time and develop a relationship with them so I can say I have some kind of a family which I’m related to as I currently don’t have one and I’ve made one with friends and people I classify as family but its kinda different.
Wish me luck and I’ll keep you all updated in my life
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